I’ve been struggling lately with a thought process that isn’t very respectable amongst certain circles of society. We are brought up to believe that rules are important and we should respect those rules and follow them. For many things, I believe this to be true, especially when it comes to doing things that might cause harm to others. On the other hand, there are certain rules that chafe at my very being and it is a struggle to live with them.
While I could probably come up with a long list of the rules I dislike and would prefer to go away, suffice it to say that it is the source of my dislike for certain rules that causes me to feel the way that I do. Deep within who I am as a person is a primal need to be free from the constraints placed on me by other people; by a society that has decided that order is more important than choice. That the illusion of safety is more important than allowing people to live their lives as they see fit.
Many of the restrictions we live with today are causing a large number of people to waste their talents away. There are so many rules and regulations regarding something as simple as just starting your own business that it creates a barrier to entry that is simply too high for many to overcome. Much of the time it isn’t money that stops a person from trying to step out on their own, but an arduous process of jumping through regulatory hoops that people can’t or won’t deal with.
I’ve known for a long time that I don’t like working for other people. Having to come into a place every day where I have little to no say about how I spend my day just rubs me the wrong way. It was extremely difficult to deal with back when I was in the military, and it hasn’t become any easier now that I’m just working a regular day job. My spirit is crushed on a daily basis when I get up in the morning and have to go into work.
My last few more personal posts have been somewhat depressing, and I realize this isn’t really something that most people want to read about. We are all mostly concerned about our own problems and don’t really want to hear about the problems of others. I do my best to keep my issues to myself, even in my personal life, but sometimes you just need to get your thoughts out of your own head and out into the world.
At the same time, it is my belief that some of my readers will identify with this feeling. There are so many people in the world who are stuck in situations no one wants to be in. Some have it worse than I do, while some are better off, but the feeling is exactly the same. We all envisioned our lives turning out differently than they did. There is no cure for a disappointing life, and in the end we are bound by the chains that brought us to where we are today.
What can we do about such things? Raging against the status quo might have some kind of positive effect, but most of the time it’s just wasted energy. The mass of society is going to progress forward the way it has for the entirety of human existence, singularly unimpressed with our desire for something more. We can try to follow the advice of some to “make your dream come true” through hard work, but realistically it also requires a bit of luck…or a bit of help. There isn’t really much you can do if you have neither.
I try to stay positive in my life and especially in this blog, but lately I’ve been struggling with these feelings I can’t seem to deal with. There needs to be a change of some kind, but I just don’t know what. Like many people who might be reading this, I’m struggling with figuring out what I can and want to do with my life. Who knows where I will end up, but I hope it will be somewhere that finally puts me in a place to do something with my life that makes me feel like my life is accomplishing something worthy.
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